There’s so little town in between us.
I thought that would be
the solution; a resounding nail-bit
crack in the box that was
supposed to be a treasure trove.
With the streets so short, my
skirt could be too,
and that was all the reason I
might shiver up to you. A corner away,
maybe. I’d take them all on
tipsy toes, just in case. In your case.
I wanted to be in your case. This
tiny place pivoting the world should have
tumbled me into you, at the same time it
held my ankles steady. I could have been a tower.
Every day was a chance.
But you are a man with small
lungs and heavy breath. You kneaded all the space.
I walked around in a flower vase even though
you refused to see me as the bouquet.
Gasping, panting;
I was wilting.
It was our roads which cut
us, to the quick:
Each of my moves you could see;
you were right down my neck about it.
And you making an Atlas out of me
turned into a hunchback complex:
I knew—it’s how close we were—
this foyer, that hallway, the very lawn I stood on
was your next canvas, to sigh at me
head to toe. A judge twiddling his hammer.
Making me bend, crane, stoop,
lest I look silly to so-serious you.
I just wanted to take a step without
touching all of my nerves, without
waiting for all your weight to hit me.
I had a hunch; you made it bad.
That’s not going to mold me. So would you
take the next turn, away, so I might
unwind myself.